The Codex of Uncertainty Transposed – 30 Years of Anoroshutyun – Armenia (Part 52)

Transposing emblem by Mania Israyelyan

It was 1988. One December morning, when I was a 6-year-old girl, I was up to my daily duty of helping my mum. As I bent down to reach the bottom of the closet, I felt I was swaying back and forth. Not realizing what was going on but still instinctively feeling something was wrong I sought a place to hide under the nearby table…

I just drew the brightest (or rather the darkest) memory from my childhood. And that’s it, the beginning of the era of uncertainty. No one knew how long it was going to last. Definitely no one would expect 30 years.

Armenia – Passing clouds – Vahan Abrahamyan

I didn’t know how long it would take to restore life to its normal course after such a devastating disaster. If we would ever have a chance to do so. The number of casualties were immense. Bereaved and homeless families, who were going to bear the imprint of the earthquake for the rest of their life, not only psychologically, but socially, economically, physically.

In the early 1990s, a lasting conflict between two neighboring countries turned into a large-scale war. Destruction, death, darkness reigned in the country. Uncertainty became our companion.

Armenia – Light – Mania Israyelyan

But wait, everything was not that bad. There was a ray of hope for an hour or so every day. In the dark and cold years (as we refer to them), when electricity was being sold to neighboring countries, we would spend days without power. On those evenings by the kerosene torch, time after time, I would stop reading and gaze at the clock and the light bulb. I was counting the minutes and seconds for the cherished one hour of electricity. Nothing on earth would bring such joy as the bulb all of a sudden vaguely lighting up.

In 1991, the Soviet Union collapsed, increasing the chaotic mess and leaving the generation-to-come in ultimate uncertainty. In the following years, the gap between the soviet and new generation grew. The former one longing for those years and the new one striving for the new world and embracing it.

Yerevan, Armenia – Weathervane trees – Karen Faljyan

To make matters even worse, corrupt government officials embezzled enormous quantities of state assets. Monopolies literally ruined small and medium-sized businesses. The unemployment rate hit unprecedented levels. People now faced a bigger dilemma – to stay or to leave. Hundreds of thousands chose to break the chains of uncertainty by – as we say in Armenian – trying their luck in other countries. Did they succeed? Difficult to say. Whatever their situation through the years they did not overcome the uncertainty as to where they belong. Why? No matter how eager they are to assimilate in the foreign environment, nations like ours have that unique and – most of the time – exaggerated habit of preserving their national identity.

Yerevan, Armenia – Passing by – Alexander Chizhenok

To illustrate this, a story came to mind that one of my acquaintances told me a few years ago. As immigrants they were living in a block of flats in a European city. Their kids dropped their toys on the floor when they were playing. In traditional Armenian culture, moderate noise (sometimes not only moderate) is okay. You can’t just go to your neighbor with kids and ask them to stop playing. Moreover, calling the police for such a “tiny” matter is something for a horror movie.

Yerevan, Armenia – Different – Alexander Chizhenok

Why on earth don’t we let go of the stereotype that the police are there only for grave crimes. Family violence or bugging neighbors are to be accepted. What if those so-called “minor” issues end up in a tragedy? And how many of them could have been prevented? Your national identity will be distorted and you will be labelled a “gorts tvox” (a kind of undercover agent). These are the underlying factors that hold us back from being part of a new environment. It is almost like trying to dance at two weddings at the same time. We don’t know whether we are at the desired wedding or at the factual one.

Yerevan, Armenia – Crossing – LMspencer

Or why do we take pride in our historical tragedies? This question had bugged me for a long time before I got the answer. And I got the answer when I was musing on a headline for this article. 30 years of uncertainty. All of a sudden it sounded to me like Gabriel Garcia Marquez’s 100 Years of Solitude. And voila! The bulb suddenly lit up. The past is binding! The past is certain, that is indisputable. When the present is uncertain and the future unknown, you have to have something to cling to.

Why are we always driven by the fear of losing rather than the desire to explore and achieve. Why is the world a place to fight against rather than a place to embrace? The list of whys is unending. The answer is obvious. 30 years in the unknown, loss, fear.

Yerevan, Armenia – At the Cascade – Alexander Chizhenok

Let me draw a picture of the present. Imagine a village with a school, which, on the first day of the academic year, welcomes its one and only first-grader. The little girl, slightly scared, with uncertain and questioning eyes, is trying to understand why the regional governor is paying a special visit to her and sitting beside her at the old desk.

Let’s travel to another one, with dozens of empty houses in each block, or another one scarcely populated with only pensioners. My native town is one of those with my parents being among the fewest families in the whole block.

Armenia – The landscape – Aram Atyan

My generation did not have a happy start to life. The adolescent years were like expecting the light at the end of the tunnel. We jokingly said that it could be the lights of an upcoming train. The train did not arrive. Now as adults, instead, we try to find the exit to the tunnel we were forced into. The 3-decade veil of uncertainty was too heavy to tear apart. At breakthrough moments in our history, we always showed either unbelievable will power or an unbelievable instinct of self-destruction. We toppled the mafia, took down the government. Now we are standing at the gate. It is like entering the promised land. Moses and his people wandered for 40 years in the desert. We did 30 in uncertainty. We are almost there. Will we take the step? Will we be able to enter the gate? Or will we reawaken the self-destructive instinct? It is still uncertain…

Mania Israyelyan

Credits

Photo 1: Vanadzor, Armenia – Winter morning – Karen Faljyan (Shutterstock)

Photo 2: Armenia – Passing clouds – Vahan Abrahamyan (Shutterstock)

Photo 3: Armenia – Light – Mania Israyelyan (Private collection)

Photo 4: Yerevan, Armenia – Weathervane trees – Karen Faljyan (Shutterstock)

Photo 5: Yerevan, Armenia – Passing by – Alexander Chizhenok (Shutterstock)

Photo 6: Yerevan, Armenia – Different – Alexander Chizhenok (Shutterstock)

Photo 7: Yerevan, Armenia – Crossing – LMspencer (Shutterstock)

Photo 8: Yerevan, Armenia – At the Cascade – Alexander Chizhenok (Shutterstock)

Photo 9: Armenia – The landscape – Aram Atyan (Shutterstock)

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The Codex of Uncertainty Transposed

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Awdejuk, Pawel. Niepewność – The Road to Freedom – Poland. July 2018.

Bell, Sarah. The Bushfire Drive – Australia. July 2018.

Bondarenko, Evgeny. Twenty Plus Years. August 2018.

Cajoto, Christina. The Trajectory of Life – España. August 2018.

Castañeda, Martha Corzo. Worried Workers – Peru. February 2018.

Cooleridge, Tweeney. Uncertainty in the Abstract – Slovakia. March 2018.

Cordido, Veronica. The Crib of Uncertainty – Venezuela. January 2018.

Dastan, S.A. Uncertain Waters – Turkey. March 2019.

Deiana, Sara. The Dark Side of Perfection. September 2018.

Electra P. Aβεβαιότητα: The Enemy of Romantic Relationships – Greece. February 2018

Escandell, Andrea da Silva. Compromise – Uruguay. March 2018

Fischer, Kristin. Talking about Cancer – Germany. September 2018.

Gómez, Javier. Uncharted Bliss. October 2018

Goumiri, Abdennour. Uncertainty Is All There Is – France. February 2018.

Guerrero, Marilin. Crossing the Uncertain Path of Life – Cuba. February 2018.

Guillot, Iuliana. Preparing for Change – Romania. June 2018.

Huihao, Mu. Going the Uncertain Way. July 2017.

Husaini, Maha. Inshallah – Jordan. December 2018

Julber, Lillian. What Will Tomorrow Bring? – Chile. July 2018.

Kanunova, Nigina. Metamporphoses in Modern Life. June 2018.

Kingsley, Anastasia. Expect the Unexpected. November 2018.

Konbaz, Rahaf. So You Say You Want A Revolution – Syria. March 2018.

Korneeva, Kate. One We – Russia. April 2018.

Krnceska, Sofija. No Name Country – Macedonia. May 2018.

Lassa, Verónica. The Old Eastern Books of Uncertainty – Argentina. May 2018.

Lozano, Gabriela. El cuchillo de la incertidumbre : Piercing Uncertainty – México. January 2018.

Marti, Sol. A Thought Falling – Spain and Germany. December 2018.

Pang, Lian. Now or Later? October 2018.

Phelps, Jade. Healing Journey Pulls Us Apart – America. June 2018.

Protić, Aleksandar. Environmental Uncertainty. August 2018.

Romano, Mavi. An Uncertain Democracy – Spain. April 2018

Ranaldo, Mary. Incerto or Flexible: Italia and UK. March 2018.

Ray, Sanjay Kumar. Once upon a Time in a Queue – India. November 2018.

Çakır, Peren. Building a Future in Times of Uncertainty – Argentina and Turkey. May 2018.

Sanmartín, Virginia. Qué Será, Será – Spain. June 2018.

Samir, Ahmed. Uncertainty in Personal Life. January 2018.

Sariñana, Alejandra González. A Brighter Future? – Mexico. December 2018.

Skobic, Aleksandar. Genetic Code Name: Unique – Bosnia and Herzegovina. December 2018.

Sekulić, Jelena. Nesigurnost of the Past, Present and Future – Serbia. June 2018.

Sem, Sebastião. Vagrant Poets. September 2018.

Sepi, Andreea. Uncertainties Galore – Germany. April 2018.

Sevunts, Nane. From Uncertainty to Newness. November 2018.

Sitorus, Rina. When Uncertainty Reaches the Land of Certainty – Indonesia and the Netherlands. May 2018.

Trojnar, Kamila. Ephemeral. October 2018.

Quintero, Jonay. The Fear of Not Knowing – España. January 2018.

Uberti, Alejandra Baccino. Adventure – Uruguay. September 2018.

Vuka. Lacking Uncertainty in Political Culture – Serbia. April 2018.

Wallis, Toni. Living for Today – South Africa. October 2018.

Younes, Ghadir. Economic Uncertainty in Life – Lebanon. Part 38.

Zakharova, Anastasiya. LGBQT – Russia. August 2018.

Forthcoming

The Syncretion of Polarization and Extremes…

Source: The Codex of Uncertainty Transposed

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