Conceived – Armenia: Life after Nare (Vigil 2)

The Little Rabbit

The rabbit was powerless. The other animals knew it. That’s why they bullied her sometimes or, what’s even worse, tried to be generous to her. A dark world was being built inside the rabbit. The demons were growing and growing because the rabbit was totally isolated. She lived with the demons and naturally the place where she lived was the home of demons – hell. The sarcasm that she harbored towards her own identity fed the demons, and they became stronger and stronger in the rabbit.

Now, the little rabbit – humiliated by the bigger and stronger – became the home for devils. And you know what? She was a little rabbit! She did not mean to harm anyone. Today, she was the home of evil. And who was to answer? Our ideology says it’s that rabbit that could not fight the demons inside. And you know what? She was a little rabbit! She did not mean to harm anyone!

And Julie thought that there was something wrong somewhere. She knew that when she was a child. She knew that when she was a teenager. And now when she lived with the demons inside, she knew that. No, she did not make a pact with the demons. They were taking away her energy and happiness. And all that happened just by itself. There was no one that she could put her finger on and say. You! You made this. And now free me for life. Give me space. I want to live just like you do.

Conversation with Nare

These stories gave meaning to Julie’s life. There was a lot that motivated Julie to live on. But she had questions that were unanswered and the only being that could give answers to these questions was Nare.

Julie: Please tell me why we need God if He is not there when we need him.

Nare: Oh, you know it better. No matter how bad things are, you still have this slight portion of hope in you. You know that better than anyone. You always have the feeling of hope that does not fade away. And you know what? This hope is connected with an urge to experience the justice that you expect in this life or after this life. You do hope for justice, and all people do. And this urge for better is always connected with God. That’s why we need Him. That’s why even in the worst situations we have a secret feeling that He is going to make it right – in this life or after this life.

Julie: What do you mean after this life?

Nare: Yes, it’s cruel but we all know that not everyone finds satisfaction in the current life. And that’s why we have this belief in life after death. We do hope, and not only you, everyone has the hope that things are going to be right after they die. Isn’t that true? But it isn’t important whether that is true or not. The important thing is to have this belief. It comforts you. It comforts everyone.

Julie: On one hand I want to die a natural death but on the other hand I don’t know how to live on.

Nare: The answer is ACCEPTANCE. Don’t fight the past, present or future. Don’t fight anything. Just accept them as they are.

Julie: Easier said than done.

Nare: I know, but once you do that you will put seeds of life into the soil. Accepting the reality in all its forms is the key to life. You do want to live, don’t you?

Julie: I don’t know. There are times when I have a feeling of curiosity. I am just curious how things will develop. Other times, I just don’t want to live.

Nare: Catch the curiosity. Even if nothing major happens, it still means being. Breathing, walking, talking – appreciate them. Appreciate breathing.

Julie: Hell, you think it’s enough that you are breathing????

Nare: I got you. You took my words literally but they mean more than that. If you don’t appreciate little things in your life, big things are not gonna happen. Try it. Even a tomato plant grown on your balcony is worth admiring. YOU put the seeds in the soil, didn’t you? See now it is a big plant. Put seeds in your souls by planting very little things there. These things are different for people. Some people are excited about being curious. Others like to jog in the morning. Well, heck, if you just like to lie on the sofa and make up stories in your mind, that’s you, also! Bring it back to life. You will say “merci” to me as Armenian use to say when they are grateful.

Julie: Where am I going? Why can’t I see light at the end of the tunnel?

Nare: You are desperate, but life always proves that “this will pass, too.” Be patient and you will get through the tunnel.

(…to be continued…)

2021: Conceived – Volume 2 of a Contemporary Transadaptation 

January: The Pack – Alejandra Baccino (Uruguay)

February: The Pink Shirt – Talia Stotts (America)

March: Dragging the Past out into the Light – Kate Korneeva (Russia)

April: Looking Forward to Spring – Marilin Guerrero Casas (Cuba)

May: Every Little Thing – Gennady Bondarenko (Ukraine)

June: The Girl Who Chased the Rainbow – Toni Wallis (Sarah-Leah Pimentel) (South Africa)

July: Another World – Jonay Quintero Hernandez (Spain)

August: Life after Nare – Nane Sevunts (Armine Asryan) (Armenia)

September: Meeting My Homeland – Rayan Harake (Lebanon)

October: Catching Water (Part Two) – Javier Gomez (Argentina)

November: Remember – Seyit Ali Dastan (Turkey)

December: Los Caminantes – Veronica Cordido (Venezuela)

Background – Context

In the Middle – Prelude to a Contemporary Transadaptation, (eds.) Angelika Friedrich, Yuri Smirnov and Henry Whittlesey (2020)

Peripatetic Alterity: A Philosophical Treatise on the Spectrum of Being – Romantics and Pragmatists by Angelika Friedrich, Yuri Smirnov and Henry Whittlesey (2019)

La Syncrétion of Polarization and Extremes Transposée, (eds.) Angelika Friedrich, Yuri Smirnov and Henry Whittlesey (2019)

The Codex of Uncertainty Transposed, (eds.) Angelika Friedrich, Yuri Smirnov and Henry Whittlesey (2018)

L’anthologie of Global Instability Transpuesta, (eds.) Angelika Friedrich, Yuri Smirnov and Henry Whittlesey (2017)

From Wahnsinnig to the Loony Bin: German and Russian Stories Transposed to Modern-day America, (eds.) Angelika Friedrich, Yuri Smirnov and Henry Whittlesey (2013)

Emblems and stories on the international community

Perception by country – Transposing emblems, articles, short stories and reports from around the world

Credits
Yerevan, Armenia – Skyward – KAR ARM (Shutterstock)
Source: The Codex of Uncertainty Transposed

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