My diary

Fear

I: Why do you feel anxiety when something happens that does not meet your expectations?

Myself: I don’t know, it’s just happening. I feel anxious energy rising inside me and my whole body trembles.

I: Can you feel that?

Myself: I want to avoid it. I don’t want to feel that.

I: Can you accept it?

Myself: Accept what? Fear? Why?

I: Because only then can you get rid of it. Accept the fear the way it is, and it will leave you.

Myself: Easier said than done.

I: Pause a moment. Feel the energy rising inside you. Do not push it. Do not hold it back. Just let the energy flow.

Myself: Can I do that?

I: Try it.

Emptiness

I: Yesterday I tried to feel the anxiety that was inside me. I paused a moment and didn’t do anything. The anxiety was there. I didn’t push it. On the contrary, I welcomed it. After a moment or two, I felt all my nerves relaxing. It worked.

Myself: Now do the same with the other feelings?

I: What do you feel right now?

Myself: I feel there is something missing. There is not enough of something very important.

I: Now pause. Accept that feeling of emptiness. Can you feel it?

Myself: My whole body is resisting.

I: Accept the resistance. I know so much is going on in your body now. You feel emptiness; you feel your desires are not satisfied; you feel you want to take some action right now. You are impulsive. There is one answer to this entire storm – acceptance. Whatever is rising inside you should be met with open arms. Resistance, emptiness, unsatisfied desires. But please don’t do it all together. Take your feelings one by one and accept them.

Myself: What do you mean by accept them? I don’t really understand.

I: The first step to acceptance is awareness. Be aware of your feelings and let them happen. Acceptance will come naturally as you watch your feelings rise. Just try it every time a negative emotion is rising inside you. You will be amazed how relaxed you feel.

(…to be continued…)

Transadaptation Volume 4 – Material Dissent

January: A Blinding Light and Then, All Darkness – Jonay Quintero Hernández (Spain)

February: The Opportunist – Lauren Voaden (United Kingdom)

March: A Stranger in my City – Alejandra Baccino (Uruguay)

April: A South African Soundtrack – Sarah-Leah Pimentel (South Africa)

May: Full Circle – Ina Maria Vogel (Germany)

June: La Lluvia en Bogotá – Adriana Uribe (Columbia)

July: Freedom – Krisztina Janosi (Hungary)

August: A Bus Ride – Svetlana Molchanova (Russia)

September: Transcendence – Armine Asryan (Nane Sevunts) (Armenia)

October: Motherhood – Marilin Guerrero Casas (Cuba)

November: Nine Days – Gennady Bondarenko (Ukraine)

December: Open – Seyit Ali Dastan (Turkey)

Background – Context

Transadaptation Volume 3: Evanescent – Young Adulthood Transadapted, (eds.) Angelika Friedrich, Yuri Smirnov and Henry Whittlesey (2022)

Transadaptation Volume 2: Conceived – Childhood Transadapted, (eds.) Angelika Friedrich, Yuri Smirnov and Henry Whittlesey (2021)

Transadaptation Volume 1: In the Middle – Prelude to a Contemporary Transadaptation, (eds.) Angelika Friedrich, Yuri Smirnov and Henry Whittlesey (2020)

Peripatetic Alterity: A Philosophical Treatise on the Spectrum of Being – Romantics and Pragmatists by Angelika Friedrich, Yuri Smirnov and Henry Whittlesey (2019)

La Syncrétion of Polarization and Extremes Transposée, (eds.) Angelika Friedrich, Yuri Smirnov and Henry Whittlesey (2019)

The Codex of Uncertainty Transposed, (eds.) Angelika Friedrich, Yuri Smirnov and Henry Whittlesey (2018)

L’anthologie of Global Instability Transpuesta, (eds.) Angelika Friedrich, Yuri Smirnov and Henry Whittlesey (2017)

From Wahnsinnig to the Loony Bin: German and Russian Stories Transposed to Modern-day America, (eds.) Angelika Friedrich, Yuri Smirnov and Henry Whittlesey (2013)

Emblems and stories on the international community

Perception by country – Transposing emblems, articles, short stories and reports from around the world

Credits (left side, middle – top to bottom, right side)

1. Syunik, Armenia – The cliffs – Ani Adigyozalyan (Unsplash), 2. Tatev, Armenia – Tatev Monastery – Anie Arstamyan (Unsplash), 3. Syunik, Armenia – In the mountains – Ani Adigyozalyan (Unsplash), 4. Tavush, Armenia – Transcendence – Karine Avetisyan (Unsplash), 5. Lori, Armenia – Mountain grazing – Aram Grigoryan (Unsplash), 6. Armenia – Gora Arailer – Aram Grigoryan (Unsplash), 7. Goris, Armenia – Ephemeral – Mushegh Hakobyan (Unsplash), 8. Armenia – Monastery Valley – Ivars Utinans (Unsplash)

Source: The Codex of Uncertainty Transposed